Toby's journal

Hi. Most of the time I assume this is a completely normal way for one's body and mind to behave, but sometimes I wonder. So I'd just like to run something by you.

Some days, I have loads of energy. The day seems brighter, I move faster, I feel connected to the world. I can hyperfocus on tasks, and an avalanche of nifty code flows from my fingers. If I'm riding my bike, I feel like I'm flowing along the road perfectly. I feel enthusiastic and full of ideas.

Then there are some other days, where it's the opposite. I feel drained, lifeless, detached. I'm operating at a distance from a dulled world. I can't focus, have no motivation, and really just want to curl up in a duvae under my desk. Going out is just too much like hard work. I don't feel socialable or smart at all.

There also inbetween days.. it's not always total polar opposites like that.. but most days tend one way or the other. They tend to come in batches, followed by the swing to the other sort for a bit.

So... that's normal, right? Everyone gets that?

Personally, I'd love it if I could figure out how to have the high-energy days all the time. I'd get so much more done!